Having moved from England to Australia back to England then to Dubai the time has come for me to move on to pastures new for the fourth time. I will be kicking off 2018 in another new country as this time I will be moving to… drum roll… the Netherlands. This post is basically is life update that has become a brain dump of how I am feeling about this whole situation. So read on to find out what’s good, what’s bad, what terrifies me and what excites me about this new adventure.
The reason for this move is that my Dutch partner (Frans) has a new job in the Netherlands and I am going to be moving there with him. This move I find in some ways easier than my previous moves because I have him, his family and thus a support network to help me. But in other ways it is more terrifying, namely because this has been our long term goal for a while now and if it doesn’t work out the way we want it to I don’t quite know what we will do next. Of course there is also the whole not speaking Dutch issue to contend with as well. I have had a few Dutch lessons before and of course had a good go at Duolingo, but honestly for the past year I have basically not done anything in terms of Dutch learning. I have kept saying ”Oh when I actually live there I’ll pick it up” and now all of a sudden I am actually going to be living there, and suddenly the pressure is really on.
I am also slightly scared at the fact that I don’t yet have a job. Frans keeps telling me not to stress too much about this and to spend the first few months concentrating on settling in and doing some Dutch courses. Which all sounds great, but I know how I get when I don’t have a job… I lack a sense of purpose and lets face it I need to fund my exploding wardrobe. I also feel that my job search is quite narrow as for the time being I can only work in one of the international companies so that I can speak English in the office. Thankfully there do seem to be quite a few of these companies in the Netherlands and I have found quite a few jobs that I have quickly fallen in love with. I regularly seem to be squealing with excitement and telling Frans “Oooh this one would be just perfect for me”, if only one of these companies would reciprocate my feelings and think that I would be perfect for them. I think with this whole job search I do need to be a little bit more patient and if I am stuck writing the same thing in six months – okay nine months – time only then will I allow myself to panic.
The next thing that slightly concerns me about this move is that we will be living with Frans’s parents while we settle ourselves into life in the Netherlands. Now I do love Frans’s parents but I find the whole living with them situation very awkward. I have stayed with them before of course, but now I will no longer technically be a guest, but at the same time I will always feel a little bit like a guest. It is hard to explain but I am sure if you have been in this situation or even if you haven’t you can sympathise with me. Anyway lets hope this is just a temporary situation as Frans keeps reassuring me that it is.
It is not all doom and gloom of course for I am – for the most part – really excited about this new move. The whole time that I have been living in Dubai I have known that it really was a temporary thing, whereas this move to the Netherlands feels – even though it may not be – a lot more permanent. This means that I can treat myself to a new blender – funny the things we get excited about when we are nearing thirty – and when we decorate our new apartment we can put a lot more love and effort in because we will know that we will be living there for a good few years.
If I am honest with myself I am also ready to leave Dubai. I have really enjoyed working as a cabin crew in that I have travelled to so many different and amazing destinations. The lifestyle in Dubai is also something that I will miss but I have also felt quite frustrated with the job and I am really looking forward to getting back to an occupation where I am using my brain and I can be proud of the work that I am doing.
I also am actually very excited to learn Dutch – even though it also terrifies me. I do feel that as a native English speaker we are very lazy when it comes to learning languages as we expect everyone to just speak English to us. If I do manage to master the Dutch language as I am going to try my very best to do, I will be so proud of myself because coming from England I can tell you not many people I know speak anything other than English.
Well folks that is all my most pressing thoughts on the matter for now. I am heading out to enjoy my last few weeks of year-round sunshine before I am propelled into a Dutch winter… eeek! I’ll be sure to keep you updated as to how it all goes, maybe through monthly updates or something similar… we’ll see.